The "Changed by Jesus" series features stories about how Jesus is working through the ministry of Mars Hill Church to change lives. If God has used Mars Hill to transform your life, email your story to testimony[at]marshillchurch.org. By Libby Downtown Seattle Campus Just over two years ago my whole life was consumed with the question, "What if...?" What if _________ happened? What if I fail? What if I’m not good enough? With this worry came the sin of self-sufficiency. I didn’t believe Jesus was bigger than any issue I had in my life. I felt that I was the only one who could fix things and take care of things even though I fell flat on my face every single time. After moving here from the mid-west (a second time), God brought me a challenge that would show me that only He was sufficient. I moved here knowing two people in the whole city, with no job and no place to live. But by God’s grace, I reconnected with two friends from college, and within two months of being here, I had a job and a place to live. God used these friends to introduce me to Mars Hill because he knew I was likely to fall into old patterns of sin. I had never heard the Gospel like this before! I grew up very religious in a non-Christian home. I loved Jesus from the time I was little, but I received conflicting views about him. It was the series Pastor Mark taught on the book of Philippians that first drew me in. This is also where God began to break me down and utterly destroy me. I learned that there was nothing I could do to earn His love for me, and there was nothing I could do that would take it away either. God also used my community group, who kept pushing me towards the light and away from old patterns of sin. Redemption groups helped me to let go of the depression and self-infliction that had replaced Jesus in my teens and early twenties. The leaders showed me my own sin, and I was able to lay my sin and bitterness at Jesus’ feet without picking it back up again. Three months later, I was laid off from work. My flesh instantly wanted to go through all the motions it had used to "survive" in the past. Instead, by God’s grace, I started praying. I didn’t understand why it had happened, but I knew that it was for my good and His glory. I meditated a lot on Philippians 4:6-7. In the last eight months I have learned to trust in him completely. I no longer worry how I’m going to pay rent, how I’m going to afford food, or if I’m going to be able to afford to ride the bus for the next month. God has provided all of these things and more. He has surrounded me with a family here at Mars Hill that loves, encourages, and helps me in ways I never imagined possible. He has called me to serve full-time at the Downtown Campus, and it has been humbling to be a part of all that he is doing here and all over the world.